hey jealousy.
hey jealousy.
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— Augusten Burroughs

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I feel like I have so much power in my hands right now, I have the ability to just type here whatever I want. Everything I think right now, can be read, everyone can read my mind. Who care’s anyways.
Have you every felt everything falling down around you? But instead of feeling it have you actually just took a step back and watched it fall?
My mind is going in so many different directions right now it’s unbelievable and it’s really hard to keep up. I have the perfect job where I can definitely succeed in life and be where I want to be later. I’m learning new tricks everyday, I ran my first big thermal vacuum job for Lockheed Martin It’s great, my general manager came up to me this morning after working a 17 hour shift complimenting me on my good work and very quick learning, and most of all letting Lockheed Martin leave happy. Something is still missing though. I feel way to overwhelmed with everything going on right now in my life. I Just want you.

picture taken from my work. love it.
This feeling is fucking horrible, it’s stressing me out so much it’s making me feel physically sick. I was tired of trying to convince you to stay with me, I was only an option to you when I made you my priority. I did so many thing’s with you because I knew that our memories would last for a long time, and we could cherish them. I almost feel stupid for being so excited for introducing you to my family. I guess this is partially my fault, going into this when you arent ready for anything. I should have known it was going to end like this. You tell me that you still care for me and you don’t want me to smoke still. This is really making it tough.
I changed my tumblr name just so people I know don’t know it anymore. I like it better like this kind of. I feel like I can vent more without caring who is reading it and how I feel like I can’t be judged by anything in it. On the other note, a big deep part of me wishes that you would read it just to know how I feel.